From Blow Jobs to Tacos

Sometimes you feel like it's just a blessing to have someone there, but some people are removed for bigger reasons. Years ago, my grandmother told me she prayed every night for my happiness, she said that is the reason you divorced. She said he was not the man for me. I thought she was crazy, lol. But I learned that shedding some relationships is truly a blessing. I love the new life I have and who I get to share it with. So while those who had a strong presence in my life in the past...your absence has been the biggest blessing! And for that, I thank you all!

This past summer I lost a close friend. Not a day goes by that I don't think about him. Every Wednesday I watch Mean Girls and wear my Jazz shirt! It's crazy to know that someone I talked to on a daily basis and smiled so big...inside was so alone. I know he's no longer in pain and for that I am happy, but remember to check on your friends, lots of them are fighting battles you know nothing about. I love and miss you man! Continue resting in peace Jazz.

This song actually speaks volumes. Don't ever think you need to settle, just to have someone love you. Love should not hurt. It took a long time for me to learn that. The best thing I did was divorce. My wasband is not a horrible man, we just weren't right for each other and we really tried to stay together and it just made a bad situation. Plus we were young, so the stress of kids, bills, jobs got to be a lot to handle. I remember one fight we had, he bit my face...my mother said she could never get past seeing his teeth marks in my face. She said that broke her heart, especially because I stayed with him after that. The longer we stayed married, the less physical fighting we did, it was more emotional and mental. I think that was worse. When I found someone who loved me and encouraged me, it was like a breath of fresh air. The last three years have been a journey, but the best journey of my life. And I wish my wasband the best of happiness. Our time together was toxic, but we

There are some connections that can never be broken... This guy is the definition of AMAZING, probably why his name has been tattooed on my back since I was 18 years old, lol. He has been the love of my life, my best friend, my biggest supporter for the past 27 years.  This guy drove 5 hours to watch my son tour a college for an hour, took my oldest to see her favorite college track team and bought my mini more souvenirs than she could ever image from his trip to Africa and Canada...to say I am blessed is an understatement, he is exactly the man I knew he would be when I was 15 years old. They say never say never...so I never will, just glad that he's stuck around as an amazing best friend for almost 30 years...he wasn't a horrible boyfriend either back in high school, lol :) I love you MEME, thanks for no matter what, kids, marriage, divorce, loss of loved ones...thank you for always being there!

So I was talking to a friend the other day that always goes back to her boyfriend because she doesn't like to be alone. No matter how many times she catches him cheating, she goes back...My first thought was you dumb chick, but I've been there, my wasband was a compulsive liar, cheater, narcissist...you name it. What we fail to realize, because we are "in love" is that the very signs that we ignore at the beginning of the relationship, usually become the reasons you leave the relationship.  We cause our own heartbreak sometimes, we know what's good and not good for us. So in short, don't sell yourself short! You are worth more than that!